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title = "Farewell"
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date = 2020-12-23
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I must stress first and completely that if you are reading this, none of this is
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remotely your fault in any way and please try your best not to blame yourself
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at all.
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My thoughts are really far to disorganized and scattered right now to really
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figure out, much less describe in words, why it is that I am ultimately even
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having this crisis in the first place. What I do know is that I am in pain, I am
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confused, I can not really think straight, and I am scared. I am sorry for all
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of the pain and complication this will cause everyone, but I honestly can not
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really deal with myself any longer. This happens over and over and it gets worse
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every single time. My attachment to reality is so inconsistent and discontinuous
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and confusing now anyway that I honestly have a hard time convincing myself that
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this is not just some stupid dream.
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Gale, you are such an amazing person, still not really sure how you are a real
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human that exists. You have spent so much of your own time and energy looking
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out for and protecting me and I really do apreciate it. I am sorry for it
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ultimately not paying off.
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Ash, I am sorry to be putting you through this stuppid shit again and I know
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that it will probably be so much worse with me than it was with our dad.
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Please try your hardest to stay strong and keep being such an amazing and cool
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and talented person. Take care of Ibsen and Willow.
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Lynn you are the most important person to me and I honestly can not believe
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you put up with me this long, but you did.
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I know you have some of the parts of me, so please be careful.
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Take care of Kloey.
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I love all of you so much.
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Farewell,
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> Hazel
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